It’s amazing that when the runners hit the last leg of the NYC
Marathon, no matter how tired they are from running the previous 26 miles,
rather than dragging their feet acorss the finish line, they always seem to break
into a sprint. No one has “chulsha d’orcha”
once they reach the end of the journey. Bnei
Yisrael left Mitzrayim just weeks earlier knowing and anticipating that they
were going to have this unbelievable experience of “mattan Torah.” They finally get to the finish line, and now, “chulsha d’urcha?!”
The Chiddushei haRI”M explains that “chulsha d’urcha” does
not mean physical weariness from the journey; “chulsha d’urcha” means spiritual
weariness. On the journey to Sinai, Klal
Yisrael crossed paths with Amalek, “asher karcha baderech,” (urcha = Aramaic
word for derech) who cooled their enthusiasm.
How did Amalek do that? Not,
writes the Shem m’Shmuel (Parshas
Bamidbar), by diminishing the importance of Torah or the significance of mattan
Torah. No one would be tricked by that
message. To the contrary, Amalek
acknowledged that kabbalas haTorah was a lofty, monumental achievement – so great,
in fact, that who could really say that he/she was up to the task? A group of people who had been slaves less
than two months ago, who less than two months ago had no zechuyos, had no
mitzvos? Amalek has the same gematriya
as safeik, doubt. It’s not G-d who Amalek
caused Klal Yisrael to doubt – it was themselves, their own ability and
worthiness.
A guy walks into the beis medrash on Shavuos night and he
hears a bachur arguing with his chavrusa over a R’ Chaim, he sees two kollel
guys fighting over a Tosfos, and he thinks to himself, “What am I doing here –
I barely understand pshat in the daf yomi and can barely stay awake for the
shiur on a regular night!” That’s “chulsha
d’urcha.” It’s not that the person doesn’t
appreciate Torah and love Torah. We’re
frum folks, no one is going to convince us that learning is not important, that
Shavuos is not special. It’s just for
someone else, someone on a higher level, someone who is up to the task. Davka because it’s so great, it’s not for
me. That’s Amalek.
The reason Moshe always went up the mountain in the morning,
explains the Shem m’Shmuel, is because morning is a time of chessed and
renewal. Had Bnei Yisrael come that
first day to camp at Sinai filled with the hislahavus and anticipation that
they should have had, had they come sprinting to the finish line, then, then Moshe
could have gone up the mountain right away. It’s only the “chulsha d’urcha,”
the “karcha baderech” of Amalek, which dimmed their enthusiasm and caused Moshe
to have to delay until the next morning.
Maybe something on the parsha a little later...